My Beloved ♥

He is back! :)


He came back yesterday! I miss him so so much and
at last he is back :)
September 22 he went to National Service for 2 months.
Actually should be 3 months but his camp just 2 months :)
I'm so happy that he came back yesterday but not on the 22 of
December. If not I will die of missing him too much! xD
When he came back from National Service, 
he looked very very slim. His face don't have the baby face anymore :(
And his tummy also got very small! I can't hug his tummy anymore :'(
But anyway, as long as he is save then everything is an OKAY! :D


Then, when he came back that time I really don't have the feelings of..
I also don't know how to say.
All I know is that when we hug each other I don't feel anything.... 
I also don't know how to say.
I just know that I don't really care about him going out with his friends anymore.
Why ah? 
But I scare because of this feelings will make us separate!
I don't want it to happen! :(
I don't want our relationship to end :'(
What am I going to do?! :/
I think from now on wards I will cherish him more and more and 
cherish the time when we are together.




I LOVE YOU MY DEAR ♥

``Cherish Every Moment ``

Updated!

This is the new blog for us! :) It's kinda pinkish..

but, for me is still okay.

Hope he will like it after he came back :D

Actually I really don't know what background I should use

then, at last I chose this pinkish pinkish background :PP

Hope ya'll readers will like it too :) 

It takes me a lot of time to make and change this background but,

at last I still did it and it ended up become like that xD 

Anyway, new year is going to come so, everything will be new too! 

But, boyfriend is not new la of cause! :P 

Next year will be a new year for me and him :)

Cause both of us is going to College! :)

So excited! :P

Hope after new year my relationship between him will last!

:) 

Cause he is my EVERYTHING! <3

``What Are Words♥``

Chris Medina-What Are Words

 Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
  Causewhat kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cause what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

``Love it so much! ``

``Who Am I to You?``

Who am I to you?

Am I important to you?

Or I'm just a girl who you want me to replace your friends 

whenever they are not with you?

Actually you asked me before that what do you want and what do you need.

I know. I know what you want and what you need.

You want freedom, you need friends, you need me and you want us to be happy together.

But do you know what I want and what I need?

Maybe you will say that all I want is you to accompany me always.

I admit that I really want but I didn't force you.

All I want is that I really don't want to feel the loneliness anymore.

You said I keep on simply think but do you know why?

The way you treat me will make me simply think.

The way you treat me really makes me feel more

LONELY.

Whenever I wanted you to talk to me or just

accompany me by sending messages, 

you will not free or with your friends or maybe 

very LATE reply.

Is not didn't reply just for awhile

but for a very long time.

I don't know what are you doing.

I keep on asking myself what are you doing?

When I really wanted you to accompany me

you will think that I don't give you any freedom.

You asked me before that why other girls can do it

but why I cant?

My heart totally.... </3

Its so hurt!

At  first you call me not to compare with other girl

but now you compare me with other girl.

If like this why do you still want me?

Together with me just give you a lot of stress.

When you compare me with other girls

I really don't know what to say.

My heart just know how to crack into pieces.

Other than feeling pain and hurt  I can do nothing.

I was thinking...

Loving someone should have accept their good and bad no matter what.

But, I don't think you are.

Maybe you'll just like being freedom all the time.

Sometimes I really think that you should find one which will give you 

ALL THE FREEDOM!

I was trying so hard and you give me this kind of feelings?

I try to stay strong but sometimes I really cannot stand it!

I know you will said that no matter what I do,

how I feel you will still continue to be like this.

This word really makes me very upset with you.

Why am I the only one who try so hard to change everything?

What do you do? 

Did you try to change anything to become better?

It was so tiring. Have you been through this kind of feelings?

Do you know how it feels to be the only one

who try so hard to change everything to become better?

Maybe you will asked me what have you do wrong or

what things do you need to change..

This is you.

You will never know that you have do wrong anything.

Yeaa, you will ask me but I wont tell.

If you really have the heart than you will find it by yourself.

Now, I'm thinking how long I can still stand it.

Hope I can stay strong.

Sigh.

``I am nothing to YOU!``

``Unhappy``

He went to Genting Highland with his friends this morning.

Oooowwwhhh! I felt so ALONE.

Before he went to Genting, actually he asked me that can he go.

When I wanted to say yes I very scared that this kind of feelings will come.

But if I said no, I'm scared he will unhappy and say that 

I don't give him any freedom with his friends.

What to do? It took me 2 days to think the answer.

Than, before I can tell him the answer, I purposely asked him

'How you go Genting Highland?'

When he answered me 'Still don't know yet. Need to asked my friends.'

From that conversation, my mood become very down.

Because from that conversation I already know what is his answer.

I tell myself, if you had already decide your answer why do you still

have to asked me?

 Besides, from that conversation I felt that no matter what answer I'll give him,

he will just do what he wants to do.

If it's a Yes than is a Yes.

I can't say No.

Sometimes I really don't know what to do.

All I can do is just sit down and shut up and let him go!

Sigh! 

Sometimes I asked myself why I treated him like this.

The answer is.......

I need his attention and his care. ><

Sweatness! =.=||

But is okay. 

I've promise him that I will try my best.

So, now I must do it! 

No matter how pain it is, I need to do it!

Need to try my best!! :D

Just pretend to be happy and stay strong! :DDDD

``GAMBATEH!``

``Hot Spring``

Today went to Hot Spring with my dear~ :D

So happy!

At first I really give him play. ><

I thought at first we just go Mc Donald eat only but than
he suddenly called me back and called me to bring extra pants and underwear. -.-|| 
>< I listen to him and I bring it.
Than inside the car he told me actually no need.
-.-|| ( feel like killing him~! :PPP )
hehehe~ xD
I asked him where we want to go and where is that place?
He answered me 'DON'T KNOW' somewhere Hulu Langat/Ulu Langat
I was like 0.0?
Okay, never mind. I wait. ><
I wait until when we reach somewhere Hulu Langat/Ulu Langat ? 
(I also don't know which one xP)
Than I 'agak-agak' know where he want to go. :D
Suddenly he said he found it already, I asked him is it the signboard 
written there '...Kolam Air Panas...' ?
He said ya. :D
When we reached there, I was like..
O.O WOW! ><
I never see before a real hot spring. ><
Once we go in to the water, I can feel the heat, the hotness 
from the hot spring. 
Is very hot once we go in that time and I was like keep on shouting 
'Ahhhh! Very hot! Very hot!'
My dear was like =.=||
don't know want to say what. Hahahaha! :P
And one thing, once we go in we took some pictures together :D
Here it goes..

Yay! :D SMILE! :)

After we took this picture, it start to drizzling.
OOooowwwwwhhhh! ;( 
I thought we gonna go back but dear don't seems to be 
satisfied yet. :P

Taadaa! :D

We soaked our leg for a very long time.
Than, when we get up and go to the other side we saw our leg turn reddish.
>< Is pain actually :P
 

See! Is reddish! ><

And of cause, we also got took some picture in the other side of the 
hot spring :D

My leg is getting redder. ><"

WoooOOooTttsss! :P My dear is acting cool! :PPP

This is me! :D PEACE! ^_^v

I'm sweating! o.o" :D Because it starting to feel the HOTNESS! :P

We took video too! :D
But blogspot don't let me upload. ;(
saddd!!!! Hate it! xP

My leg! Took it when we are going back! :D

After the hot spring, we went to Mc Donald at last. :D
Feel so happy after going to the hot spring :D
Feel very nice and relax
Love it so muchie! :P

``Love Hot Spring``

``Together``

Yaa~ Our problem is settle at last. :D

sometimes our relationship become like this also because of me thinking too much. ><

Feel so sorry to him.

But this is how I feel when he treat me like this~ :P

But now, everything is over. :)

So happy to have him in my life.

He do so many things for me~ I'm so touch. :')

He can sacrifice his time, sometimes he also sacrifice his friends just to be with me.

Sometimes I asked myself why do I asked for more?

He has sacrifice so much for me but I still asked for more.

Feel sorry about it.

I know all he want is that both of us can together happily.

Think openly than everything is okay.

Being happy all the time is already worth it.

I thank God that he came in to my life.

I thank God that He gave me him.

I must appreciate more from now onwards.

I cannot be so selfish. 

I must give him some freedom to be with his friends

even though sometimes he will late reach home, but,

once in a while is okay.

So, I hope this problem wont happen again.

Now, I will try my best to do it.

=]

I can see him that he really don't want this relationship to end like this.

See, have him as my boyfriend shows that I'm very LUCKY ! :P

hehehe! :D 

Thank you 陈富成 for loving me. 

I Love You.

Our story will never end.

Our Love life will never end.

We will be together as long as we can! :D

Love You so much my dear.

Thank you.

``Thank you. I Love You.``