``What Are Words♥``

Chris Medina-What Are Words

 Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
  Causewhat kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cause what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

``Love it so much! ``

``Who Am I to You?``

Who am I to you?

Am I important to you?

Or I'm just a girl who you want me to replace your friends 

whenever they are not with you?

Actually you asked me before that what do you want and what do you need.

I know. I know what you want and what you need.

You want freedom, you need friends, you need me and you want us to be happy together.

But do you know what I want and what I need?

Maybe you will say that all I want is you to accompany me always.

I admit that I really want but I didn't force you.

All I want is that I really don't want to feel the loneliness anymore.

You said I keep on simply think but do you know why?

The way you treat me will make me simply think.

The way you treat me really makes me feel more

LONELY.

Whenever I wanted you to talk to me or just

accompany me by sending messages, 

you will not free or with your friends or maybe 

very LATE reply.

Is not didn't reply just for awhile

but for a very long time.

I don't know what are you doing.

I keep on asking myself what are you doing?

When I really wanted you to accompany me

you will think that I don't give you any freedom.

You asked me before that why other girls can do it

but why I cant?

My heart totally.... </3

Its so hurt!

At  first you call me not to compare with other girl

but now you compare me with other girl.

If like this why do you still want me?

Together with me just give you a lot of stress.

When you compare me with other girls

I really don't know what to say.

My heart just know how to crack into pieces.

Other than feeling pain and hurt  I can do nothing.

I was thinking...

Loving someone should have accept their good and bad no matter what.

But, I don't think you are.

Maybe you'll just like being freedom all the time.

Sometimes I really think that you should find one which will give you 

ALL THE FREEDOM!

I was trying so hard and you give me this kind of feelings?

I try to stay strong but sometimes I really cannot stand it!

I know you will said that no matter what I do,

how I feel you will still continue to be like this.

This word really makes me very upset with you.

Why am I the only one who try so hard to change everything?

What do you do? 

Did you try to change anything to become better?

It was so tiring. Have you been through this kind of feelings?

Do you know how it feels to be the only one

who try so hard to change everything to become better?

Maybe you will asked me what have you do wrong or

what things do you need to change..

This is you.

You will never know that you have do wrong anything.

Yeaa, you will ask me but I wont tell.

If you really have the heart than you will find it by yourself.

Now, I'm thinking how long I can still stand it.

Hope I can stay strong.

Sigh.

``I am nothing to YOU!``

``Unhappy``

He went to Genting Highland with his friends this morning.

Oooowwwhhh! I felt so ALONE.

Before he went to Genting, actually he asked me that can he go.

When I wanted to say yes I very scared that this kind of feelings will come.

But if I said no, I'm scared he will unhappy and say that 

I don't give him any freedom with his friends.

What to do? It took me 2 days to think the answer.

Than, before I can tell him the answer, I purposely asked him

'How you go Genting Highland?'

When he answered me 'Still don't know yet. Need to asked my friends.'

From that conversation, my mood become very down.

Because from that conversation I already know what is his answer.

I tell myself, if you had already decide your answer why do you still

have to asked me?

 Besides, from that conversation I felt that no matter what answer I'll give him,

he will just do what he wants to do.

If it's a Yes than is a Yes.

I can't say No.

Sometimes I really don't know what to do.

All I can do is just sit down and shut up and let him go!

Sigh! 

Sometimes I asked myself why I treated him like this.

The answer is.......

I need his attention and his care. ><

Sweatness! =.=||

But is okay. 

I've promise him that I will try my best.

So, now I must do it! 

No matter how pain it is, I need to do it!

Need to try my best!! :D

Just pretend to be happy and stay strong! :DDDD

``GAMBATEH!``

``Hot Spring``

Today went to Hot Spring with my dear~ :D

So happy!

At first I really give him play. ><

I thought at first we just go Mc Donald eat only but than
he suddenly called me back and called me to bring extra pants and underwear. -.-|| 
>< I listen to him and I bring it.
Than inside the car he told me actually no need.
-.-|| ( feel like killing him~! :PPP )
hehehe~ xD
I asked him where we want to go and where is that place?
He answered me 'DON'T KNOW' somewhere Hulu Langat/Ulu Langat
I was like 0.0?
Okay, never mind. I wait. ><
I wait until when we reach somewhere Hulu Langat/Ulu Langat ? 
(I also don't know which one xP)
Than I 'agak-agak' know where he want to go. :D
Suddenly he said he found it already, I asked him is it the signboard 
written there '...Kolam Air Panas...' ?
He said ya. :D
When we reached there, I was like..
O.O WOW! ><
I never see before a real hot spring. ><
Once we go in to the water, I can feel the heat, the hotness 
from the hot spring. 
Is very hot once we go in that time and I was like keep on shouting 
'Ahhhh! Very hot! Very hot!'
My dear was like =.=||
don't know want to say what. Hahahaha! :P
And one thing, once we go in we took some pictures together :D
Here it goes..

Yay! :D SMILE! :)

After we took this picture, it start to drizzling.
OOooowwwwwhhhh! ;( 
I thought we gonna go back but dear don't seems to be 
satisfied yet. :P

Taadaa! :D

We soaked our leg for a very long time.
Than, when we get up and go to the other side we saw our leg turn reddish.
>< Is pain actually :P
 

See! Is reddish! ><

And of cause, we also got took some picture in the other side of the 
hot spring :D

My leg is getting redder. ><"

WoooOOooTttsss! :P My dear is acting cool! :PPP

This is me! :D PEACE! ^_^v

I'm sweating! o.o" :D Because it starting to feel the HOTNESS! :P

We took video too! :D
But blogspot don't let me upload. ;(
saddd!!!! Hate it! xP

My leg! Took it when we are going back! :D

After the hot spring, we went to Mc Donald at last. :D
Feel so happy after going to the hot spring :D
Feel very nice and relax
Love it so muchie! :P

``Love Hot Spring``

``Together``

Yaa~ Our problem is settle at last. :D

sometimes our relationship become like this also because of me thinking too much. ><

Feel so sorry to him.

But this is how I feel when he treat me like this~ :P

But now, everything is over. :)

So happy to have him in my life.

He do so many things for me~ I'm so touch. :')

He can sacrifice his time, sometimes he also sacrifice his friends just to be with me.

Sometimes I asked myself why do I asked for more?

He has sacrifice so much for me but I still asked for more.

Feel sorry about it.

I know all he want is that both of us can together happily.

Think openly than everything is okay.

Being happy all the time is already worth it.

I thank God that he came in to my life.

I thank God that He gave me him.

I must appreciate more from now onwards.

I cannot be so selfish. 

I must give him some freedom to be with his friends

even though sometimes he will late reach home, but,

once in a while is okay.

So, I hope this problem wont happen again.

Now, I will try my best to do it.

=]

I can see him that he really don't want this relationship to end like this.

See, have him as my boyfriend shows that I'm very LUCKY ! :P

hehehe! :D 

Thank you 陈富成 for loving me. 

I Love You.

Our story will never end.

Our Love life will never end.

We will be together as long as we can! :D

Love You so much my dear.

Thank you.

``Thank you. I Love You.``

``Be apart``

Without you everything is empty.

Saturday that day night he asked me can he go out and 'yam cha' with his friends.

Than I was like disappointed a bit. Than I asked him

'I can say canno mehh? '

Than in my heart I was asking,

If I say no to him, will he listen to me?

I know no matter what my answer is he will still go.

Sometimes I really feel like asking him that does he really know how I feel.

Do he really think before only he do something?

After that I said okay to him.

Than not long enough he accidentally called me.

So, I answered.

When I've answered, my mood totally change.

I don't know why but my feelings keep on telling me that he is hiding something 

from me.

So, Later, I end the called and I message him that I wanted to go to sleep.

But actually I'm not going to sleep also.

Than he said sorry to me.

I was like, totally ignore him.

I cried.

I keep on asking myself that 

did he hide anything from me?

I'm scared. I'm in pain.

Than, I keep on telling myself that he wont hide anything from me.

He wont hide anything from me.

He will tell me everything right?

Inside, I feel awful. I feel like taking a knife and stab on it.

From Saturday night onwards, I totally ignore him.

He message me I don't want to reply.

Sunday, he message me and called me I ignore it.

Feel so bad.

But I'm scared.

I scared he will tell me the truth.

So, I rather pretend that I didn't bring the phone with me.

When the phone rang, I tell myself is not my phone.

It's so difficult to do that.

But once I really feel like answering it and said sorry.

But I've decided not to answered it. 

10pm I message him back.

And this time, his turn to ignore me.

In my heart I keep on saying sorry sorry sorry sorry.

But is too late, isn't it? I asked myself.

Even though I've called him to give up me and leave me,

but actually in my heart I don't want it to happen.

But it seems like it's already happen and is too late to turn back.

I felt very regret. But what to do?

All I can do is just hope.

Sometimes if I hope too much, I'll get more disappointed.

Can I say I want him back in to my life?

Sigh! 

You Know That I LOVE You

Than Is Already Worth it.

``Sorry, But I LOVE You!``

``Movies together``

When to leisure mall to watch movie with him.

thought of watching I Am Number 4 but after we reached at the cinema,

we saw the I Am Number 4 but the time is too late already.

The time is 5.30pm~~~  

I was like..... =.=|| and T^T

I wanted to watch so badly but the time is not suitable cause I need to go back home earlier.

Means is b4 6pm I need to reach home, if not i killed by my mum! 

After that I decided not to watch anymore cause I feel so disappointed! :(

Than suddenly he keep on asking me what is Rango? What is Rango?

Of cause I said is the lizard movie.

Than he said he feel like watching it but I said to him that I don't want to watch anymore.

Than I pull him away.

While he is walking he called asked me got 20 cent of 50 cent or not.

So, I said I only have 20 cents only.

After I gave him, he said the head is don't want watch Rango,
the flower is watch Rango.

Than he throw and cover his hand when it falls back to his hand.

After that, when he opened his hand we saw flower.

Than he look so disappointed.

I tease him and said just go, it's already fated that we cannot go watch~ xD

Than he turn and look at me,

and I said "Okay fine, Let's go watch Rango."

Than we 'patah balik' ^^ 

So means we ended up watching 

Rango the lizard movie instead of I Am Number 4 . :D

 

 

 

 

 

 

Rango The Lizard Movie! xDD

 

 After the movie, we went to Mc Donalds! :D

Yay! :P 

eat eat eat! xDD

after that we took some pictures :D 

here they are! :D

Smile! :D

Oooppsss! >< what's with us?? :PPPP

 

What am I doing??? :PPP

Muackzz! :D

Thank you dear dear for accompanying me watch movies

really happy yeaa~ :D

``Thank You so much!``

`` Broken Heart ``

We quarrel again. This problem always make our relationship become worse.

I really tried very hard. But why he want me to be like this?

Being fake all the time is already very suffering.

Every time pretend that I'm okay but actually I'm not okay.

What do he want from me now?

He said he want freedom, I gave him freedom.

He said want to do this and do that, fine, I gave him.

But in return what he gave me back?

A broken heart?

Yeaa.. I'm jealous.

I jealous his friends very much.

You know why?

Whenever I wanted to go out with him during the weekends

he said he need to ask his mother permission.

Okay fine. Than later his answer is no.

I don't know his mother said no or he who said no.

But whenever he go out with his friends,

every time also yes.

Is so hard for me to go out with him during the weekends.

When I've the chance to go out during the weekends

he will say cannot or no.

All he want is just go out with his friends.

Friends friends friends!

Me?

Just a SHIT!

I still got many places wanted to go with him.

I wish we can go together but because he act like this,

my hope towards him has gone. TOTALLY GONE!

He said he care about me.

But does he care about my feelings?

He always ask me, What's wrong with me?

If got anything must tell him.

But sometimes I asked myself,

If I tell him, will he do it?

Will he do what I said?

No!

So why do I want to tell him my feelings?

Whenever a guy have what they want,

they will slowly change.

Trying so hard to do something that I don't like just because I wanted him to be happy.

Huuuhhh! Is so hard for me to do that.

But what to do? 

If I don't do this he will blame me

for not giving him freedom.

Sigh!

Now, I really don't DARE to say that I miss him anymore.

Just because he said he wants freedom so badly,

now I tell myself that I don't miss him anymore.

If I miss him, the person who hurt is me not him.

Actually he really don't know what I want.

Is not that I didn't tell him.

Is that he don't really care about me.

If he care's, he will find out what I want.

Now I can see that he want friends more than me.

Whenever I wrote my feelings on my facebook wall,

he will scold me. 

He scolded me that whenever I wrote like that his friends will ask him many things

and he don't know how to answer.

Am I making you feel so a shame in front of your friends?

Sigh!

Feel like forgetting everything that happen and start all over again.

But sometimes I asked myself why do I do what he asked?

why am I so stupid?

he is just a human like everybody.

What's the different?

Because my love to him is super deep.

And that's why it is different from others

but why do he keep on hurting me and do the things which will hurt me a lot

even though he know that I love him so much?

Is it very fun to see your loved one to be hurt?

Sometimes I do feel fed up.

But what to do?

need to be stupid all the time and need to be fake all the time.

Just to see him happy that's all.

STUPID me! 

``Broken Heart``